Tuesday, April 21, 2015 @7:31 AM
Just finished has my last ever inter schools individual events, well its one i really tried my best and well didn't achieve what i wanted. 2 3rds seem like a shitty thing to get but well maybe one day i'll look back it what seem to matter so much now wouldnt anymore. It feels so weird having to finish my last ever inter schs individual event. Just like how i started it all with 100fly and now it has come to an end. Never thought this day would come...well i knew that during the o level period i'll step down a lot but now, it is really the end. Like i'm over age and would be impossible to ever enter this competition that has been a huge part of my life that made everything what it is now. It literally changed my life from the very first pri5 inter schs i've ever been to. Didn't know it would have such a big impact on me personally and it feels weird looking back now to the person who felt that pri 6 wpuld be her last race ever and all those big people who are stll competiting seem like a far journey from where i was at and now, i'm as big as they can go, i've lasted longer that most have and well now its time to move on. Its really sad to find out, swimming, who had made me who i am today, who had changed my life forever, wouldn't really make a difference from now on. Swimming gave me personal identity and now its all going away. It feels so strange, like i never imagine swimming would ever be such a big part of my life, yet i never could have imagine ever leaving this sport. Left with one last medley relay tomorrow and so gonna have emotional moment, will take many pictures and one day look back and remember all this ups and downs, fun and thrilling moments that hopefully would still make me feel that crunch in the stomach and my heart racing with my hands all numb. Goodluck to me and all the best for my last inter schools event ever.